I chickened out!

A few weeks before the planning session, I decided I wasn't gonna run away from fear anymore. I said to myself, I am going to face this no matter what happens. I said there's no point in running away because I can't escape any longer. I just had to accept the fact that it's going to be like this from now on. Then, on the night before the actual planning session, where I had to stand before all the officers, managers and of course the top management and present my report, I panicked. I chickened out and I took off. I didn't care anymore. I just had to run away. Again.